Mothers Day comes and goes again!

This is a very bittersweet Mothers Day for me. If you have followed my writings, you know Mothers Day has been a difficult time every year.

Well, this year was sure different! We are Fostering 2 little twin boys, so I had kids for Mothers Day this year! These boys are such a joy and blessing to our family, we are so thankful to God for bringing them into our lives. They are too young to really get the idea of Mothers Day, so Tim let them pick out a card they thought was pretty lol. How SWEET to just have kids on that special day.

Here’s where it becomes the BITTERsweet…

Tim’s mom was hospitalized for a stroke, they found cancer and 2 weeks later she passed away. Day before Mothers Day. We think she believes in Jesus as we do and we will see her in heaven one day, we are comforted by this.

Mothers Day, hey? Anyone who has wanted kids and dosn’t have them knows this grief, the rest of you can only guess at what it’s like. It is like a death, it’s so painful.

I think because God hasn’t blessed me with kids till now, I’ve built it up to something SO special that my expectation was just way too high. The kids really don’t make Mothers Day special, lol!!!

There is always SOMETHING we can grieve about in life. The fact that I haven’t had the beautiful joy of bearing a baby, nursing a baby, raising a baby, naming a baby, seeing the similarities in myself or Tim, etc. It comes down to this- what is my focus? On what I DON’T have, or what I DO have?

God has given me a wonderful, kind husband, wonderful friends, a fabulous church. I am supported and loved by my family. I love what God has given me to do with my time. NOW I have 2 little ones who live with me and love me and I love them. I am truly blessed!

This year, I can focus on the fact that Tim’s mom passed away so close to Mothers Day, and accept that I will be sad every year for Mothers Day because of it, OR, I can choose to focus on the year I had 2 sweet boys on Mothers Day, and the blessing that was.

It seems to me that every single person has heart-wrenching stories. None of us have an easy peasy life with no hardship or sadness. The difference we can make with our attitude is in our choice of focus. At least today, I choose to focus on the blessings! Just one day at a time. Big hugs my friends <3 Check out the rest of my Mothers Day story here!

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I'm a bit of a health nut and not ashamed of it! God, family and Missions are huge passions and driving forces in my life. I have had fibromyalgia for most of my life and am in the process of a treatment that is gonna give me my life back! Join me in my journey to wellness, make some new friends and maybe encourage someone else along the way!
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6 Responses to Mothers Day comes and goes again!

  1. Rebecca Ann Roy says:

    Dear Christine, Very well written and insightful! So glad those kids of yours got to celebrate having a mother on Mothers Day as well as you experiencing being a mother. My deepest sympathy for Tim and his family having to say good bye to his mom for now. What a blessing for her that her pain was short and she had her new, whole, healthy, heavenly body for Mother’s Day. Love you and your sweet family! Hugs, Becky

    • Christine says:

      HI Aunt Becky! Thank you, we really are so blessed to have these boys, just love our little family <3
      And thank you, the Mann family are a tough bunch, and really rallied together through this. What a blessing to know Jesus and that we will all be together again one day! Love you too!

  2. Michel Buitendyk says:

    You have a wonderful way of bringing your feelings into words my friend. Your thoughts here on paper (electronic) will help more people you can fathom. My thoughts and prayers are with you and yours! Michel

  3. My heart goes out to you and Tim in the loss of his mother. πŸ™ How shocking to lose someone so swiftly!! You have a beautiful way of focusing on the positive, on the blessings in life. I pray for peace, comfort, and healing for you and your husband.
    I also resonate with what you posted about not having children. I am 34 and have never been married or had a child, although I have longed for both of these things for many years. I’m grateful for the children in my life that God has given me to love (I am a nanny), but I still long for a family of my own. I look at myself as a mother, even though I have never had kids. I have mothered in different ways than other mothers, but I am still a mother. I see you the same way. We have mother’s hearts, and God sees that and honors that. Hugs to you!

    • Christine says:

      Thank you for your comment! Yes, we all make an impact on children, being a nanny is totally being a mom!!! I was 32 when I met and married my hubby, so hang in there, it will still happen! <3 Hugs back atcha!

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