This is a very bittersweet Mothers Day for me. If you have followed my writings, you know Mothers Day has been a difficult time every year.
Well, this year was sure different! We are Fostering 2 little twin boys, so I had kids for Mothers Day this year! These boys are such a joy and blessing to our family, we are so thankful to God for bringing them into our lives. They are too young to really get the idea of Mothers Day, so Tim let them pick out a card they thought was pretty lol. How SWEET to just have kids on that special day.
Here’s where it becomes the BITTERsweet…
Tim’s mom was hospitalized for a stroke, they found cancer and 2 weeks later she passed away. Day before Mothers Day. We think she believes in Jesus as we do and we will see her in heaven one day, we are comforted by this.
Mothers Day, hey? Anyone who has wanted kids and dosn’t have them knows this grief, the rest of you can only guess at what it’s like. It is like a death, it’s so painful.
I think because God hasn’t blessed me with kids till now, I’ve built it up to something SO special that my expectation was just way too high. The kids really don’t make Mothers Day special, lol!!!
There is always SOMETHING we can grieve about in life. The fact that I haven’t had the beautiful joy of bearing a baby, nursing a baby, raising a baby, naming a baby, seeing the similarities in myself or Tim, etc. It comes down to this- what is my focus? On what I DON’T have, or what I DO have?
God has given me a wonderful, kind husband, wonderful friends, a fabulous church. I am supported and loved by my family. I love what God has given me to do with my time. NOW I have 2 little ones who live with me and love me and I love them. I am truly blessed!
This year, I can focus on the fact that Tim’s mom passed away so close to Mothers Day, and accept that I will be sad every year for Mothers Day because of it, OR, I can choose to focus on the year I had 2 sweet boys on Mothers Day, and the blessing that was.
It seems to me that every single person has heart-wrenching stories. None of us have an easy peasy life with no hardship or sadness. The difference we can make with our attitude is in our choice of focus. At least today, I choose to focus on the blessings! Just one day at a time. Big hugs my friends <3 Check out the rest of my Mothers Day story here!